"Shana"My Coach and My Friend
I've been in a bit of a funk recently. My die-hard dedication to working out has faded a little. We all know I struggle with eating right from time to time, but I'm dedicated to the WOD. Since I started crossfitting in August of 2007, I have consistently worked out five, sometimes six times per week. I plan my life around when I'm going to workout. But recently, I have found myself tempted to skip; my usual 5-6 workouts per week has relaxed to 4 or 5. And this past week, I made it all the way to Friday with only TWO workouts under my belt! And then "Fran" popped up. I was already struggling, and "Fran" was all it took to send me back under my rock. No way was I up for that on Friday. I made the decision to skip the workout and start the weekend early....head out to the cabin Friday evening instead of Saturday morning. Yep, that's what I decided to do.
And then about 2pm Friday the text messages started. I had told Shana the previous evening that I would do "Fran" at 4:30. (We had a late owners' meeting on Thursday, and the Friday WOD was discussed before we broke.) So when Shana failed to see my name on the schedule for Friday, the texting began. My first reaction was to ignore her messages. Have you ever tried to ignore Shana? Enough said. So then I decided to be direct and firm. "No, not working out today." That didn't work so then I tried being open and honest. "I'm feeling depressed and just don't have the energy for Fran." That honest admission led to a barrage of text messages from Shana...no waiting for my reply....just a constant, nagging stream of texts with one clear message: "Come on."
I've never been able to ignore those two simple words from Shana. "Come on" gets me back on the bar every time. It makes me run a little faster; press a little harder. Every time.
So I dragged my tired, depressed ass to the gym, not knowing how in the world I would manage to do "Fran." And Shana said, "You'll do your best. That's all anyone can ask of you...just do your best." My best was 4:25 slower than when I did "Fran" back in December. But it didn't matter because I felt relief from my depressed mood and tremendous gratitude for my coach and friend.
5 comments:
I hearya on that one babe. I pr'd 2 minutes in the WRONG direction. Cosmic law -- sometimes ya just gotta say fuckit."
It's about the JOY... so do whatever you need to keep/find that. It really helped me to ease up on myself & NOT do some wods rx'd... I found that feeling of dread dissipating. I found the DREAD was what I was avoiding, not the wod.
I hope you don't take this the wrong way PatC -- but opening your chest and showing everyone your heart/mind/soul with so much honesty & vulnerability... that's a little like doing an emotional-fran every day ya'know? I wish we'd talk in our own heads to ourselves like we'd talk to each other...
I wanna go to that cabin.
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At least you made it in and got a good workout in whether it took 8 or 12 minutes.... I think we can get really focused on the times and numbers in Crossfit, and forget no matter how fast or slow we do them we are getting probably one of the best work outs around.
Today is the first day I have ever called in sick at my work ( been there almost 3 years). I just got back from the doctor he thinks it was food poisoning, I think it was from the turkey lunch meat from YDFM. I slept from yesterday at 1 until just an hour ago, sick the whole time. I have never been so knocked out, I hope this fades quickly!
Thanks Kath and Rae for your commentary.
Rae, I hope you are feeling better! That sounds awful!
Oh, I should have checked this blog earlier. Just laughed out loud reading it! I am so glad you like my pushy, naggy self, Pat! Sometimes I worry that it's too much.
Good job getting back on track!
Rae - OMG you are not the first person this season I've heard that got food poisoning (not at YDFM). I'm impressed you've worked 3 years without a sick day! Amazing!
LOL. Pat I just read your response to my Valentine's post. What a bitter bunch we parents are huh? Ya gotta understand, Halloween, Christmas, V-Day (Naiya's favorite holiday by the way), B-day parties (all of which are like their own little holidays) and so on. But, for the Losing It bloggers only, here's my secret: I like it.
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