The Wisdom in My Heart

"Heart Wisdom"
by Susan Morrison Sims

I'm continuing to post my food diary here because it seems to be helping me. My cleaned-up eating is helping even more. I want to keep it going, and at the moment I'm feeling like I can. It has helped me to back away from the perfectionist approach. I'm not bothering to weigh and measure everything, and I'm not counting points or blocks or calories. I'm not using external cues to tell me if it's ok to eat (the clock, Weight Watchers point allocation, the Zone block allocation). I'm just listening to my body, and if I'm hungry, I eat. I try to stop when I'm full or almost full. And I'm not listening to the voices in my head, just the wisdom in my heart. I feel like I've been let out of jail after a very long sentence. Praying that I can stay out.



8:00 am, Breakfast
oatmeal with milk
3 soy sausages
coffee with milk

1:15, Lunch
Big Salad of mixed greens, 3 oz pork tenderloin, tomato, carrots, roasted asparagus, orange, balsamic vinaigrette

4:00 pm, Snack
apple and cottage cheese

5:30 pm, WOD: SP 5x1, PP 5x3, PJ 5x5

7:30 pm, Dinner
(Munched on pork tenderloin while I was getting dinner ready. I was ravenous.)
1 egg plus 2 egg whites
2 slices canadian bacon
mixed greens with tomato, carrots, broccoli, and balsamic vinaigrette
orange

10:00 pm, Snack
apple with cottage cheese

Look Inside and Listen

"Freedom"
by Duy Huynh

I had a bit of a light bulb moment after having my oatmeal this morning. Oatmeal is a grain, and so I was sort of thinking maybe I should not have eaten it. Same thing with the two slices of bread yesterday. After eating the oatmeal and enjoying it, it occurred to me that eating oatmeal or not eating oatmeal is my decision. I can listen to my body and decide if I want to have oatmeal and then depending on how I feel afterwards, I can continue to have it or not. It's my choice. The answer about whether to eat grains, dairy, or any other food is inside me. It's not in some diet book somewhere.

I think reading about nutrition and hearing what works for other people is great. But in the end, the answer for each of us is inside us. My body, my spirit knows what is best for me in everything. If I will look inside and listen and allow my spirit to direct my life, I will know what I should eat. During my binges on sweets, my body and soul always tell me what I'm doing is wrong. But I don't look inside, and I sure don't listen. I ignore my body and spirit and continue to stuff myself with unhealthy food. And then I go to the other extreme, eating only what is on the approved list, again looking everywhere except inside myself for the answer.

Look inside. And listen.

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My food diary from yesterday can be found under the previous post.