A favorite spot that I'm going to miss.I'm on the home stretch; the house is just about ready. I decided to give myself one more weekend to finalize everything. The sign goes up in the yard on Monday. Meanwhile, I'm doing the last few things on my list, and I've stopped adding things to it! When I took the oven apart in order to clean it, I decided that I really had lost my mind. If the oven needs to be that clean then the new owner needs to buy herself a new oven. I tend to see only the imperfections; it's hard for me to step back and just appreciate how wonderful this place is. This morning I was out on the back porch fretting over the floor and debating if I should whip out the paint cans and put a fresh coat down. Then I remembered the oven fiasco. Then I stepped back and looked at the bigger picture rather than zeroing in on a spot here and there. And then I felt sad. How can I leave this wonderful place that I created with so much love and heart? It didn't look like this when I moved here. The porch didn't even exist, except for in my dreams. I remember shopping for the perfect wicker chairs, and re-purposing the shutters to make that screen. I found that sweet little table at a yard sale, and I love those candlesticks. I planted the evergreens in the background, and they were barely head high; now they reach above the house. I created that perfectly comfortable and inviting scene. I'm going to miss it. . . . But the good news is that I'm taking all that shit (minus the evergreens and the porch) with me. And I'll create a new perfect spot where I'm not responsible for the maintenance.
After several days, I was back in the gym this morning. I don't feel too bad about missing a few CrossFit workouts because I have been working my ass off. I can't wait to yell "TIME" on this workout!
Sorry for the cursing. I just can't help myself these days. Without cursing, I cannot adequately express my state of mind right now. I'm exhausted and so OVER IT!
2 comments:
Wow. I love this post. I'm so impressed that there's nothing you won't do. Whip out the can of paint, take apart the oven, create of wonderful space just for you. And, yes, of course you will create another beautiful space. Even better and even more fitting for the 2010 you.
(you took the oven apart to clean it. hysterical!)
Sheryl, I couldn't stop myself...I'm telling you it's a sickness. I couldn't get the glass in the oven door clean...then I realized the "dirt" was between the glass panes, and that if I took the oven door apart I could get it clean. Well, the door is not meant to be disassembled after it leaves the factory...for a while there I thought I might have to buy a new oven. Mercifully, I was able to get it back together.
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