One-eyed Rudy
Life has settled down it seems. The AC in the condo was replaced and appears to really be fixed this time (knock on wood). No more battling with the landlord to do the right thing. No more reasons to delay settling in here. No more distractions from the day-in, day-out grind of life. I've got that, "now what?" feeling that is probably common after big life events. I'm feeling a little depressed, and when I'm depressed the only thing I can think of to make myself feel better is food. So last night I binged on ice cream. It worked. I felt better almost immediately, and fell asleep early from overdosing on sugar. Relief. Escape. For a fleeting moment.
And now I'm right back in the same place I was yesterday with the added heavy blues that always follow one of these episodes. Sugary regret. There's nothing sweet about it.
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I just finished writing that, and I'm feeling better now that I wrote it. I hope I don't depress anyone with it, but I just needed to get it out. Also, I moved out to my tiny balcony with my coffee and computer to write that blog post. Sitting outside has lifted my spirit as well. SEE. There ARE other things I can do to feel better.
Who cares if it depresses anyone?? This is about you.
Yes, there are other things. So last night you chose an old form of comfort. Today you chose something different. It's time to commit to finding other forms of comfort and sticking with them. You WILL beat this if you choose it.
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